A Cherished Dream
As I mentioned in my bio, I never dreamed of being married and having kids. It’s been one of those unforeseeable events that challenge me, humble me, and bless me. However, there is one dream that’s always been there: being a high school English teacher.
I was a freshman in high school, studying Beowulf, and the teacher was covering symbolism and it hit me, hard: I want to do this. From that point on, I was very driven; I improved my grades, was accepted into Honors, received a BA in both literature and writing, and went on to get my Masters. Well, life happened. I got married to an amazing man that went on to become an amazing father. We moved, we bought a house, and that dream, that spark, dwindled.
The Season of Motherhood
I wouldn’t say that I had given up, but more important things deserved my attention. One thing is for sure: my husband always supported that dream and would never allow me to completely give it up. But, even he wondered if it just wasn’t the right time. I had assumed that this was all a part of God’s plan; I should focus on what God is putting before me right now. I did devote a few years to teaching at the Middle School level, but I resigned when our third baby was born so I could be home with the kids. That’s what my life has been lately: running the household, attending more extracurricular events, and just being present.
Then, I got a phone call from my alma mater asking if I wanted to come in for an interview. There was an opening on the English faculty to teach Honors literature and composition. I cried—tears of joy—and said I’d be there in an hour. I thought, “This is a God thing.” My husband left work to take the kids to my mother, and I got ready. It all happened so fast, and before you knew it, I was signing the contract. We celebrated with champagne and insisted that we would make this work because… well, it’s my dream job.
God Knows the Desires of our Hearts
When I was finally able to take a breath, I realized something: God knows my desires, He knows my heart. And sometimes, His Will and what I want do go hand-in-hand. I had convinced myself that God’s Will was so important to the point that my desires didn’t matter anymore. Don’t allow yourself to fall into this trap! Yes, God’s timing is a great mystery, but He does not ignore our longings and our gifts.
My going back to work won’t be easy to juggle, but it’s worth it. And you know what makes it all even more worth it? Seeing my kids seeing me pursuing my dream. I would never want them to give up on something they love and I want to be an inspiration to them. Absolutely, no question about it, they (and my husband) come first, but just because I am a wife and a mother that does not mean that I cannot do something that brings me so much joy.
I wish I was Wonder Woman and I could balance everything on my plate, but I have to say goodbye to some commitments. So, I will no longer be a constant contributor to this blog; however, I will be doing something that’s been my passion for a very long time. Please pray for me while I embark on this new journey!